I’ve been wanting to start writing again, but I couldn’t really figure out what topics to write on. I didn’t really feel like my goal in this blog was really relevant or clear, and I want to make a defined direction. However, I had no clue what to write on. I’m only 20 (nearly 21), haven’t even finished my associates program, not in a relationship (and have never been), and still live with my parents. I don’t really have a whole lot of life experience, that or it’s not very broad. But recently, I was feeling super lonely, tired of being single, and just kind of hoping that my dream guy would fall from the heavens and we’d live happily ever after, the end.
Obviously, stuff like that doesn’t happen on a regular basis, so there was a period of me having to slap myself in the face every day and remind myself that I don’t need a guy. I’ve got friends and family that love me so much and a God that loves me more than I love myself (which, some days, is not at all). Don’t get me wrong, I love being single. I can do my own thing and, when I live on my own, I won’t have to worry about another person. And, although being single is not the worst thing in the world, it can get pretty lonely. Now, I don’t want to assume anything, but I’m sure that the majority of single people have had that experience. There is something that is so deep within almost everyone that wants something more.
So, after I kind of dusted myself off from this little incident, I started looking for resources for singles; podcasts, blogs, videos, books. I wanted biblical insight that goes a bit beyond “Paul was single too.” You know what I found? I found how-to-prepare-for-your-future-spouse, you’re-worrying-too-much-about-getting-married-get-over-it, and let’s-look-at-these-people-in-the-bible-who-were-single-but-still-ended-up-married blogs. Honestly, I didn’t even know what I was looking for, but it sure as heck was not a single one of those topics! Sure, those things help a lot of people and have helped me in the past, but it’s not what I needed in the moment.
I needed to hear that someone else is struggling with the same things I am. I wanted to know that I’m not the only one who feels like I do. I don’t want to hear about someone who got married after waiting and so will you! But I also don’t want to hear about the people who have given up on even trying because they’re passed their 30’s. I don’t want to hear someone tell me what I’m doing wrong (because they have no idea who I am). I want to hear about someone like me, but I can’t find anyone! Not only that, but all of these blogs and podcasts are telling me what to do. There’s no connection, no sincere, “I feel you, girl!” At least not when I read them.
So, naturally the only solution is to put my own life on the internet (welcome to 2017). I figure that the majority of people like me are too embarrassed or shy to admit the things that I plan to admit. It’s not exactly easy, but I think it’s necessary. If I can help at least one person then I’ve accomplished my goal. I just want people to see the raw single life. I want to document how I felt and what I use to cope with my emotions (hint: it’s usually the Bible). Because I think that a lot of times, when we read these blog posts or listen to these podcasts, they are like super expository. What’s missing is the emotion.
So, I hope that this details what I hope to accomplish. I don’t mean to sound bitter or harsh, I’m just expressing my feelings in the hopes that someone will identify with them. I want people to ask me questions and tell me their experiences with being single so feel free to stop by the Contact section of my blog and shoot me a message.